Beautiful one, I love you

Hey,

Once again its been a while since I last wrote something properly, so apologies for that. I hope you all had a lovely Easter weekend, and regardless of how many eggs you got, oh I got SIX by the way, you remembered the real reason of Easter.

I am not here to chat about all that jazzzz. What I really want to talk about is something that I've been thinking about a lot recently, and this it the wonderful issue of self-esteem.

This a vast topic affecting both women/men, old/young, skinny/big. With alarming statistics suggesting that 1 in 100 girls between 15-30 have anorexia, and pro-anorexia websites boasting 3 million posts. It is clear that we have an epidemic on our hands. Researching this blog I went on some pro-anorexia sites, which are basically message forums where girls/boys who are suffering with anorexia discuss weight loss tips, how "fat" they feel, or even their scarily low weight. I was on it for about 5 mins and had to stop reading because I couldn't see through my tears. I have never read something so heartbreaking and there is nothing I can do to get through to them straight away, or with any real success.

Granted anorexia is the extreme level of low self-esteem but around 8 out 10 girls are not happy with the way they look. I asked a few teenage girls I know about what they thought of the way they looked and this is what they said.

umm the way I look I dont really like it well I mean im constantly comparing myself to others like they are so much better

sometimes but most of the time not really

well I'm normally quite happy with the way I look, obv sometimes I think I look really good and then other days I look like crap but honestly I think I need to lose alot of weight, because I find skinny really attractive.

The saddest thing is these types of phrases and attitudes are so common amongst not only teenagers but adults, and younger children. When we look at magazines, watch films and music videos we are constantly comparing ourselves to those we see whos weight, hair, eyes, clothes are so much better than ours.

But who claims that to be beautiful? Surely beauty is the eye of the beholder? Of course it is, but that isn't enough. When Chaucer wrote Canterbury Tales the Wife of Bath was suppose to be beautiful, and she had buck teeth and a big forehead, not exactly what you'd find gracing the covers of Glamour Magazine. I am not one of the 2 in every 10 who is happy with the way I look, so this message is for me as well as you. Where do we find real beauty? How can we look at ourselves in the mirror and think "yeah I like".

The bible teaches about the way we look at ourselves, and how we need to do this in a positive way.

In Genesis 1:26-31 God created man, making us in his image and what he say was VERY good...not just good but very good. So straight away God thinks that we are very good, we are above average, we are beautiful. As soon as we are created God knows how good we are, and how good we will be.

In Psalm 139:14-17 . This is one of my favourites because God is saying we were fearfully and wonderfully made. Not by chance, or half-hearted but we are wonderful, in other words AMAZINGLY made. God planned us well before we knew ourselves and he was happy with the way we were made.

Proverbs 30:31 says that charm, i.e flirting(!) and beauty will fade with age so someone who fears/loves their God needs to be praised.

We need to stop thinking we are ugly, fat, and unworthy. We need to remember this.

Zephaniah 3:17 (New International Version)

17 The LORD your God is with you,

He is mighty to save.

He will take great delight in you,

He will quiet you with his love,

He will rejoice over you with singing."

God rejoices over us with singing, and takes great delight in us. We need to start believing this about ourselves. That we are worthy and beautiful the way we are. The song beautiful one, "beautiful one, I love you" is something God is singing over us. Regardless of what anyone says to us because God rejoices over us with singing. He made it and he said it was VERY good.

Lets start believing it. Beauty is what God tells us is beauty and he tells us that we are beautiful, he is pleased and rejoices over us.

Songs of Solomon 4:7

All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you.

In God's Eyes we are flawless....from the top of heads to the tips of our toes and everything in between. We are beautiful beyond compare. Stop doubting and start believing.

If this rings home for you please email me. hollincross@gmail.com

blog count

Just quickly:

I do a blog count just to see if anyone reads these. And surprisingly they do!

In 10 months 1500 people have read my lil blog, which is nice.

So a massive thank you to all of you who have read my blog, whether it be for the first time or you are a regular.

Thanks once again.

x

Prosperity...a load of....

Hey.

I am suppose to be writing an essay but I thought I would quickly write this. quickly I promise.

Prosperity Gospel. I hate the prosperity gospel. I hate that people think the prosperity gospel is correct. I hate that the prosperity gospel is being taught in churches across the UK. God hates the prosperity gospel. But God loves those who are following this so called "gospel".

Hate is a strong word to use so many times in one sentence, but I genuinely struggle with the idea that people think its is correct. There is NO teaching about the prosperity gospel in the bible, it is all man's conceived idea that they will adapt the gospel to reach their own potential and their own ideology.

The prosperity gospel is the idea that God wants us to prosper in success, whether this be in money, healthy, safety etc. As much as this is a lovely idea it is wrong. We all want to be successful, and we all want to make something of ourselves but sometimes this won't happen. This is not because God loves our richer friends more than us, this is simple down to God having a different plan for each individual.

If we look closely at 2 Corinthians 12 it says this:
1I must go on boasting. Although there is nothing to be gained, I will go on to visions and revelations from the Lord. 2I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven. Whether it was in the body or out of the body I do not know—God knows. 3And I know that this man—whether in the body or apart from the body I do not know, but God knows— 4was caught up to paradise. He heard inexpressible things, things that man is not permitted to tell. 5I will boast about a man like that, but I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. 6Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say.
7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

I know it is a big chunk but there is so much to take from this, that simply disqualifies any fundamental "facts" about the prosperity gospel.

1) 'I will go on boasting although there is nothing to be gained"
Paul is clear that he knows that boasting about Christ is not about him and not about his gain. He knows that it is all for God and the advancement of God's kingdom. He is not boasting in himself and he is not for his own gain but he is boasting in CHRIST and for CHRIST'S GAIN.

2) I will not boast about myself- There is nothing that we can do here on Earth that is going to gain our salvation. There is nothing we can do that can better ourselves that will glorify God, which is something we should be aiming for.

3) My grace is sufficient enough for you, my power is made stronger in your weakness- This is the biggest fact. God' grace is enough. We do not NEED anything else but grace. When we are weak God is stronger. Why is that appealing? Through that we can be stronger but not through material things but through faith.

4) For Christ's sake I delight in my weakness- Through our weakness he is made strong. We delight in our weakness because it enables us to be clear and thankful for what God has already done.

Prosperity gospel is not evident in this at all. There is no place in God's kingdom for prosperity gospel. We are not saved so we can advance ourselves, we are saved through God's mercy and love. Nothing else.

If anything we should be asking God to be satisfied in him, as John Piper said God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in him. When we are most satisfied in him and not the progression of our successes.

Please take a couple of minutes to watch this quite harrowing, hard-hitting video on the prosperity gospel.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGzqIcbvARw

If this is something that you in believe in then maybe you should consider looking back into the word and really try discover for yourself the true meaning of self-sacrificing faith.

Til next time

xx

update on facebook loss....

I'd like to say that I am still not on facebook!!!

I have not once logged in. My status and picture changed because my housemate is running for union president, so my other housemate changed it for me to help Wood out!

Only a few more weeks to go!!!

Its going ok! woop!

Also, this updates my profile automatically without me logging on!!!

Lent...facebook....power in his name.

Hey Guys,

Firstly, I can not believe it is March already!!! Its mental. I know people say it a lot but time really does fly. Gosh! I really need to crack on with my uni work. Essays...dissertations (actually singular...imagine plural dissertations!!) its all crazy times.

So, its lent....I usually don't do anything for lent because it doesn't really have any significance in my life. However, I had decided that this year I would abstain from chocolate, swearing and fast food. Thus far, I am doing very well in the chocolate region...the others not so much. I ate Domino's last night (for a justified reason) and I swore when I hurt myself!! Bad times.

As I was in church this morning the sermon was on Acts 19, this is when they reach Ephesus and there is the chaos concerning the Goddess Artemis.
So, basically in short they are really worshipping this Goddess, practicing occults etc and when they see the power in the name of Jesus when it rids a demon, they publicly burn their stuff associated with the occult and Luke says 'in this way the word of the Lord spread widely and grew power'. (Act 19:20).
This got me thinking about my Lent actions and things that are in my life that can sometimes override the power of God in me. Unlike these people I am not bounded my witchcraft, occults or the worship of idols but there are things in my life that take up my time, effort and focus when it could be used something that is more beneficial. I am not necessarily saying that I am going to use this time to read my bible, pray etc, all of which I should do more of. However, I am very blessed to be at uni, getting a degree etc. Sometimes we think if we wasting our time we should be reading our bibles etc, which of course (I cannot stress enough) that we do need to be doing; but we need to look our lives and think am I putting in the effort in my school, uni, work that I should do. We are all so blessed to be where we are, in the west, with a house, food, clothes, job, education etc then why do we find it hard to get rid of things that aren't good for us?? Why do we put so much time in other things that distract us from reaching our potential that God has for us?
Like, this people we don't understand the power in the name of Jesus so we target our attention on other things. We forget the blessings we have around us and try our attention elsewhere. For me, its Facebook. I am terrible!!! I am literally on it all the time, for example I am logged in now and have been for the last three hours. Its not that I am logged on but when I am not doing anything I'll just look around!? This is not such a massive issue but when I am suppose to be doing uni work I'll open facebook every other minute...to the point its a little ridiculous. I need to metaphorically burn this addiction....it literally is an addiction. It sounds so trivial but I need to work hard at uni but something such as facebook is that hinderence. In Colossians 3:23 it says this
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men"

And to be honest, I am not doing that. So going back to Acts 19: I am not understanding the power of Jesus' name and I am in uni for a reason and I need to achieve something that is good, like I am giving God a thanksgiving. So what I have decided to do is give up facebook!! Just at least til Easter just to see if I can do it. Its not biggy if I don't but I really want to work hard and test my self-control. It will start as of tomorrow (Monday 2nd) and I will only change my status if I do another blog so people can read it.

If you're reading this and a regular visiting of my facebook profile please continuing writing on it and tagging me in pictures but I won't reply until its Easter or I've cracked. If you want to contact me then email me hollincross@gmail.com or just text me haha! I don't know how I am going to get on with this but who knows!

I'll try and write another blog but I do have a lot of work to do!!! Please think about what I'v said

Till next time



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paths, plans, life....argh?!

'Ite,

It has been a while since I have written on here! Apologies to so many loyal people, haha! Hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and New Year. I am unsure about when it becomes a bit unacceptable to ask people if they had a nice Christmas. Although Christmas was only three works ago but it feels so much longer. Uni starts on Monday so its gonna be a week full of Christmas chat, which does feel slightly unnatural. Just a thought for you.

Anyways, enough rambling lets focus!! I am in my third year of university so currently the biggest questions I get asked (beside how my Christmas was) is what are you going to do after you leave? I have asked it to so many people because theoretically once you leave uni you're suppose to get on with your life and become a REAL grown-up. This is all well and good but to be honest not many students want to be real grown-ups. Unless there is a job where I can wake up at whatever time I want and check facebook every four minutes I am not that interested. Slowly I am coming to the conclusion that this is not going to become a reality, so because of this I need to start thinking seriously about my life, and more importantly what God wants for my life.

One of the most encouraging verses in the bible is Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

I've heard this verse so many time before but it wasn't until I just copied it that I notice 'for I know the plans'. I know I love picking out words but here I am doing it again . When it says 'I know' the plans God has already decided, he has planned well before you even knew. Which is so amazing. However, this doesn't mean we can become lazy and just assume that opportunities are going to fall into our laps. God gives opportunities but we need to be ready to see and seize them.

Please check out this clip from Evan Almighty:
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=bkf-J9TjGPc

Like Morgan Freeman/God says we aren't just zapped with these things but we are presented with an opportunity to show them. This is exactly the same with God's plans, sadly we aren't presented with our life plan in 34 slide PowerPoint presentation. We are shown opportunities and ways to get there. As much has God opens doors he can close doors as well, so options that we might think are right maybe aren't. This isn't easy but we need to trust in God and believe him when he talks in Jeremiah that he has plans that give us hope and future.

I am not saying that once we trust God life is going to be easy and all our dreams are fulfilled, but what I am saying that with God we can ensure that he is going to keep us safe. With God there is hope and that hope is Jesus. Through trusting in him we can have the hope of grace, the hope of salvation and with that we can benefit the fullness of life. We do not need to worry about our future because if we have God in the centre he will clearly show our paths. We just need to be open to them and ready to take action.

Proverbs 16:9:
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps

We may have planned our lives out to the very small detail but this verse puts it in perspective. If our heart is with God's no matter what plans we have he decides our steps and will get us to that point he desires, with hope and safety.

Reassuring?

Til next time!

xx

Your Grace is Enough....

Hey,

Firstly, I think it is wise to start off with an apology for the previous post as the majority of it made no grammatical sense! I hope you understood it regardless if not sorry! I am hoping this one will make more sense but who knows as it is 2.35 am and I should be writing an essay! Bad times!

I went to a wedding at the weekend which was amazing! During the signing of the register its tradition to have someone sing or a piece of music, well this is the case for the weddings I have been to. At this particular wedding they had 'I can only imagine' by MercyMe which is an awesome song. This got me thinking to my wedding and what song I would like to have. I don't often think about weddings (trust me) and what song I would have during this bit. Actually, I confess the only thing I think of when I think of my wedding is the music so I have all the important bits of music sorted and they aren't up for negotiation haha! Anyway...as I was walking to work I was thinking about this and wondering what song I would choose. I listed categories that the song would have to fit and these are as follows:

• Mean something to me personally and preferably to the groom
• Evangelistic but not overpowering
• Thought provoking
• Slightly emotional--- it is a wedding--I mean its the start of the end really isn't it?!
• Show Love
• Show God's awesomeness

Now to be honest this is quite a lot to ask of one song but it is a do-able, I am convinced. I was thinking of all the songs I can remember and actually accidentally singing out loud whilst walking, I came up with 'This is our God' by Hillsong. I am not the biggest Hillsong music fan when saying this I don't know all their songs and choose to listen to them as I do other Christian music. I first heard the song at Soul Survivor this year and it was my favourite because to me it just summed up God, what he did and continues to do for me. Below are listed the lyrics:

HillsongThis Is Our GodThis Is Our God

VERSE 1:

Your grace is enough more than I need. At Your word I will believe .I wait for You Draw near again Let Your Spirit make me new

CHORUS:I will fall at Your feet. I will fall at Your feet. And I will worship You here

VERSE 2:Your presence in me Jesus light the way. By the power of Your word I am restored I am redeemed. By Your Spirit I am free

BRIDGE:Freely You gave it all for us Surrendered Your life upon that cross. Great is the love Poured out for all. This is our God. Lifted on high from death to life. Forever our God is glorified. Servant and King Rescued the world. This is our God

Courtesy of: http://www.songlyrics.com/hillsong/this-is-our-god/277229/

The reason I think that this sums God up is just because it covers so much. It documents the trinity, talks about the act of grace, talks about worship, talks about God being glorified, talks the bible and finally how grace is all we need. It is so evangelistic it is unreal! If you listen to a recording of this song, particularly off the This is Our God album it is chilling (in a good way). The reason I want it at my wedding is because it covers everything in my list.

Mean something to me personally and preferably to the groom-- It had a massive impact on me
Evangelistic but not overpowering--It displays the gospel in a non-threatening way
Thought provoking--It provokes thought?! haha
Slightly emotional--- it is a wedding--I mean its the start of the end really isn't it?!-- I think its emotional
Show Love--Shows God's love
Show God's awesomeness---The bridge is a clear demonstration of this

God is glorified in this song as well which is something I adore.

One thing that I want to quickly focus on is right at the beginning when it says 'Your Grace is enough more than I need'. This refers to Paul's comments 2 Corinthians 12 when Paul is describing his thorn in his side which is the devil tormenting him. He cries out to God to get rid of it but God's reply is this v.9 "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness". We try and fulfill out lives with so many things, materialistic, emotional, physical and everything else. We are asked what we want for our birthdays, Christmas, anniversaries. My entire wardrobe is full of things that I wanted. I was wondering through Asda searching for treacle for Mummy Cross and I was wondering passed all of these items thinking do we actually need any of this? I met a guy at a pub in Wales and he got his children to watch the adverts during Coronation Street one day and write down anything they saw that they needed. At the end of the break their papers were blank. We are told we need the latest fashion, the newest I-phone and car but do we really? Yes, they may make things easier or make us look good but do we need them? I haven't had a phone for 3 months, at this point it would be good to point out that this is not because of choice before you go think I am some amazing person. One thing I have realised that my phone isn't a necessity it is something that makes life that little bit easier but it is something I need. Ok, fair enough its irritating for my friends at times but it hasn't stopped friendships.

When God said to Paul 'my grace is sufficient for you' its like God saying 'It'll do'. We need nothing else but Grace. With Grace God will give us what we need and not always what we want. That's not because God wants to be unhappy but because if we had everything we wanted then we would be spoilt. Think about when your parents said no to things that you could of had, its not because they don't love you its because they want to make sure you grow up well-rounded and thankful. Paul had a massive problem but when God said his grace is enough it was because God was going to be glorified in Paul's weakness. So when we are struggling or we think we need that top from Topshop or the next I-phone and then we can't afford it or our struggles don't seem to be going away, remind yourself that His grace is sufficient and it will do. With this is mind we will able to 'fall at his feet' understanding how amazing Grace really is and he will be glorified.

Thanks...all done....apologises it was so long. I never intend it to be but once I get going you know.....

Until next time!!